The Ramblings Of A Rodent

I haven't posted a journal in quite a bit.. well three months to be exact. There isn't much to say really; went to MFM, had a good time, caught the flu on the way back and fought that off for about a week. I've got a few tasks to around the house to undertake before winter comes around and I'm confined indoors due to the massive amounts of rain that usually accompany the season.

Well I managed to score a hotel room thanks to XianJaguar! My flight gets in around 4PM Wednesday and I'll probably be at the Westin around 5ish? Either way I'm glad I'll be making it and that any and all room problems are snuffed.

Well.. I got my tickets but now I'm beginning to really think I shouldn't have. Rooming situations seem really fucked up right now. I have three options for rooming and all three of them just seem to have their problems.

1st: I didn't get much information on how many people I would be staying with, whether I'd have bed space and what days they'd be arriving/leaving

2nd: Do have dates and knowledge of how many people are staying (Four.. I'd be the fifth) but I only know one person and if anyone knows me personally I'm not too much of a fan of packed rooms.

3rd: Seems really nice but arriving a day later and leaving a day earlier than I am so I'd be left out for those two days.

At this point I'm wondering whether I should just take the hit for the ticket and stay home.. Also I know I sound like I'm really picky but that's just the way I am. I guess I should've listened to a friend of mine when they said right when a convention's hotel opens up get a room even if you're not sure you're gonna go in the event that you do.

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I'm getting so tired of these overcast below 60 days.. We had a 'lil stint of 70+, almost 80 degree weather in which I was out in all day, soaking up every minute of sun I could. Now we're back to having frosts.

I've also noticed while living here I've developed a bit of SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder). I'm a lot more lethargic and depressed during the fall and winter seasons, even during the majority of spring because when we truly begin to have hot, cloudless summer days is pretty smack dab in the middle of the year.

Either way.. SOMEONE BRING SOME SUNSHINE AND HEAT THIS DIRECTION!

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On another note.. con-crud sucks! *BodyAcheCoughRawrg*

Still need to get packed and get a few things in order before I take off for San Jose. Dearest mum is coming up to take up the reigns and watch over grandmother for the time I'm gone so I'll have nothing to worry about while I'm there and on a side note in a year and a half she'll be retiring and moving up so it'll most likely be a permanent passing of the reigns so I can make a transition to a semi-normal life (woo).

I'm still playing WoW and with the release of patch 3.08 I've been debating which server to roll a Death Knight on to play with friends and I've also been trying to finish Fallout 3 because I seem to be coming upon too many spoilers nowadays and I'd like to finish it without knowing what's gonna happen.. seems like nowadays if you really wanna see the ending to something you stay off the internet. *chuckles* I guess my inability to finish it also stems to the fact that it has no re-playability from what I've heard and when it's over.. it's over. But with hearing of the expansion supposedly called "Operation Anchorage" I can live without the post-apocalyptic, yet retro futuristic world for awhile ;)

Very impressive.. 'nuff said.

He just dumped a few inches of powder here last night and it's friggin' COLD!!!

I know things can be a lot worse but I wish summer was here right now.

Also got my tickets to FC, woo!

Well I'm off to the con as well.. I'll be back on Monday afternoon.

Well my birthday has come around once again.. not too much has happened really since the last one. I've traveled down a few bumpy roads and went through some tough times but who hasn't? I've also learned (and forgotten) a few things here and there too. As for celebrating, I probably won't do too much.. just go out to eat with a friend and I also bought myself the Fallout 3 Collector's Edition on it's midnight release so I've been exploring the wasteland since then.

I haven't posted in about a month now so I guess I'd better at least jot down a few mentionable things that've happened to me over the course of that time.

Grandmother came home shortly after I got back from MFM. The transition back home was a little rough but she's managed to bounce back to about where she was before the whole ordeal she went through happened.

Did some major landscaping to my front and back yards, getting them both killed off along with being scalped and arieated (plugging a ton of holes in the soil) before laying down some lawn base (basically enriched potting soil for lawns) with seed mixed in so now I have a lovely front and back yard again.

After a lot of thinking I decided to go for MFF one last time due to the new location. I'm really going to be cutting down my cons I think to just FC and MFM from now on but since so many friends I don't see at those will be showing up there it'll be good for one last hurrah.

Had surgery on my right foot to remove a nasty cluster of unchecked plantar warts (mosaic wart) so I'm now having fun dealing with a bloody, quarter-sized hole on the bottom of my foot that by some weirdness will NOT STOP BLEEDING.

On the gaming front of things I've gotten back into Second Life.. got a rat character there that looks pretty much like my rodent avatar on FA so that's pretty sweet. This and the newly translated Mother 3 ROM have been a good way for me to distract myself from staring at the calendar for Fallout 3 but when that comes out I'm gonna have loads of fun.

And finally it looks like my birthday is quickly advancing on me yet again.. I'll just go out to eat for the most part then come home and vedge out on Fallout 3 some more because I'll more than likely have Mother 3 done by then.

Well I'm back..

The con went fairly well but definitely seemed a 'lil quiet since a few familiar faces that I hang out with weren't around but I still met a lot of new and interesting people and had a good time altogether. The only exception was Saturday morning after drinking almost an entire bottle of Jameson whiskey.. Oogh.. hour and a half praying to the porcelain god.

I really need to learn my lesson. *chuckles*

On the way home I intentionally had requested a six hour layover in Denver so that I could hang out with one of my buddies that I hadn't seen in ages. He had just purchased a new BMW so he took me for a drive and then we grabbed some Indian food then went to the airport where he hung out with me a 'lil longer and we just caught up on everything.

Good times..

Well I've got most of my errands done so I can sit back and make dinner and relax before my flight to Memphis. I'm hoping that all my friends going will have a safe trip as well and I look forward to seeing them soon and I also hope that all my friends who couldn't make it still have an enjoyable labor day weekend.

Well, everything is going fairly well here. I'm just busy spinning my wheels and waiting to see what my future holds. Right now my grandmother is in the rehabilitation wing of a nursing home doing PT and OT to strengthen herself up and get back to some level of functionality. The reason I'm waiting around is if she does indeed get to come home without needing twenty-four hour supervision I'm back to my old job of a caregiver. If she does in fact need twenty-four hour supervision I unfortunately have to be the bearer of bad news and inform her that she will need to be transfered to an adult foster home. Because in the state that she's in I cannot take care of her anymore. There's about three weeks to go until I can get the full update on what's going on so I've been sitting around in this big and seemingly empty house.

Who'd have thought a ninety-two year old grandmother could make a home feel full?

In other news I'm looking forward to MFM.. a lot of my good friends will be there and I could use the relaxation time for sure *chuckles* might be the last break I can get in a long while.

I know I know.. another damned depressing post but I find it's somewhat therapeutic for me to just type it out and when friends or family ask how things are going I can just link rather than go over all the crap again.

It's been rather hellish around here.. grandmother had to go back to the hospital on the 13th and she's been there until recently with pneumonia and excessive physical weakness. When the EMT's came to pick her up that morning I was falling apart at the seams but once again I had to get shit together and go and see her in the emergency room. When they finally had her admitted one of the doctors who saw her last during her visit from the 4th to the 11th had admitted to the fact that not sending her to a secondary care facility for physical therapy was a bad move. I had also noticed that during her brief stay back home she had developed a severe case of edema due to her congestive heart failure because during her previous stay at the hospital they had withheld one of her medications, a diuretic that was supposed to prevent that.

My mother finally arrived on Monday evening to help ease the burden of what's going on but the way things are going and with the way they LOOK to be going I'm too damned hardwired right now to just shut off like that and with the latest bit of news I had received involving a long-term stay in a nursing home I've been kinda just wandering about in a daze most of today feeling extremely depressed.

Well.. my grandmother is finally home from the hospital. It turns out she had come down with sepsis from ecoli. How she got it is beyond me since if it was from food that I would've become sick as well and the doctors in all of their wisdom and glory weren't able to give me a straight answer either. Unfortunately her long stay at the hospital has weakened her severely and she can barely get around if at all. In fact when we had returned home she had collapsed on the way from the garage to the utility room. Luckily, I was there to break her fall but she had to be carried through the kitchen and into the living room so she could sit in her chair. After spending 3-4 hours (lost track of time) sitting across from her and just letting her doze I decided to try and get her into bed which was another enjoyable task but I accomplished it nonetheless.

It's late at night, I've only finally gotten a chance to eat; my last meal being 10-11 AM and grandmother is resting comfortably in bed now. I'm going to take a short shower and then see if I can get some rest. *sighs* I dunno if I can do this much longer but damnit.. I don't know what to do.

Well.. grandmother is still in the hospital and I'm up way too late again. It's been strange, having the house to myself. Throughout my life I've always been connected to someone and that has given me a feeling of attachment but without my grandmother around that attachment is gone somewhat and I kinda feel like I'm drifting along at the moment. I've got mixed emotions on the fact that the house is empty. It feels strange, but yet it feels good. I don't have any messes that I need to clean up, everything is the way I like it and I feel a little more free but on the downside I can definitely feel the empty space that my grandmother filled when she was here.

On the way back from the hospital I was thinking.. that eventually it's gonna be like this for much longer than just a few days and how I was gonna adjust. I thought about things like instead of watching over her I'd be saying "Well.. gotta get ready for work in the morning." And taking off to a job that provides a little more structure compared to what I'm doing now. I also thought about the fact that when I'm finally in this state for a long duration I can actually have friends over more frequently and more social windows may open for me so those are some positives I guess. But all-in-all if these two days have proved anything it's that I'm gonna feel this same emptiness when the inevitable does occur.

Happy Independence Day to everyone and I hope you're all enjoying the holiday weekend. I was set to enjoy mine, but as my luck would have it something happened which ended up with an emergency trip to the hospital. I guess I'm glad I decided not to go to the coast after all otherwise I dunno what might've happened to grandmother. Ah well.. I've got two trips planned this month so I'll have enough time to relax then (hopefully)